Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Writers All Tread a Thin Line

Lately, I have drowned myself in working on my writing projects selflessly. I have been sitting in front of my laptop whenever I have time and been lost in the worlds I created. Even if it feels so warm and not lonely and alive, I have been noticing some disturbing feelings and changes in me when I sit down and write for several hours a day. It’s not a bad thing, but I feel as if I can’t pull out as easily as I thought from the world I’ve spent hours in.

They say many writers are fighting depression or losing their minds because of something that happened in their lives. And there are many authors in history that are clear proof of that. Virginia Woolf who is one of my favorite female authors is one very good example of that.

I wouldn’t say that I am someone suffering from depression or losing my mind. Maybe I am but not that I am aware of. I just feel that lately whatever I am working on greatly affects me for hours on end. I feel like it’s almost impossible for me to pull back fully from the character’s state of mind. I don’t if I am them or myself if that makes any sense. It could be possible I feel too heavily influenced by the characters just spending too much time on them.

On to the main point of this post, I wanted to state that I feel writers too often tread along a very thin boundary line between being in the character’s mind and becoming the character themselves in reality. What are writers? Writers are the people who compose these amazing stories and create these characters that are easy to connect to and to understand. Writers tell a thousand stories, live a thousand lives, understand a thousand minds and yet cannot understand their own. I would be willing to bet anything that there are writers out there who are unable to draw a clear line of separation between themselves and their characters. They will say: ‘I am so and so.’

When you play a role for so long, been in a certain person’s mind too long, I feel that you can’t help but feel that a part of them has grown onto you and you are them in some ways. You’ve become inseparable and no longer see or know which is the real you and which is not. That’s why readers say authors are so influential or a character is so influential.

It’s such a phenomenal experience and state of mind to be in and that’s what I’m feeling right now. I guess that’s why lately I’ve been scaring some friends of mine. It’s because I’ve been too invested and emotionally affected by the stories I’ve been working on!

Monday, November 10, 2014

Thoughts on Voting

Voting has been a huge talk lately regardless of whether it's on television, or newspapers, or social media feeds, or blogs. I believe that it's important to not forget how much it others sacrificed for us to be able to vote especially for women. We should be thankful and grateful for the chance of being able to vote and state our opinions and hope the promises candidates made to us will become reality. If we were to go back further in history like ancient China, Japan, and Egypt, we should even be more grateful for being born in a time where opinions matter, right?

I am not against voting or anything. I am for it 100%. However, I cannot help but feel very disgusted at what I saw on television the past few weeks before the voting day came. There were advertisements of politicians attacking each other and nasty comments and messages about other candidates. I was like: ‘wait a minute. What the heck is this? It was like watching a bunch of school kids bullying and attacking each other over the prize.’ Do they really have evidence on the things they claim the one they’re accusing of doing? I am sure they do or not but how much of that is fabricated and how much of it is truth?

Did those who sacrificed themselves for equality in voting sacrifice themselves for this? Maybe I just don’t understand it. I apologize if I offend anyone who reads this post. The question is: What will those who have died for voting have to say if they saw how voting has become for the candidates and the voters?

My question is I wonder how many of the oaths and promises those who win the elections are going to keep and work to make come true? How many promises go forgotten once they go into office? How can anyone promise they won’t commit the same acts like the ones they accused others of doing?

Power sometimes goes to their heads and overwhelms them. Power causes them to forget what they wanted for the people and power blinds them to cause them to see only what they want and to bend matters to their advantages. I realize I am making this sound horribly dark and full of conspiracy, but I’ve lost my hope in politics and politicians all together a while ago. I don’t trust a thing they promise.

However, I still vote every time because voting is a privilege bestowed upon us after many lives were lost to make it possible. Not voting is disrespecting those who died for us to have this right.

Friday, October 31, 2014

Happy Halloween!

Hey, my lovely and spooky readers!! Happy Halloween to all of you! I hope that you all have a great day today and to stay safe at all times! Those of you who are trick or treating to get tons of candy, and those who are going out partying and drinking keep safe and don't do anything crazy. I've never really been trick or treating in my recollection. I've only gone a few times and it was fun. I love sour candies the best!!! Whenever I got those in my bucket I squealed like the happier kid alive. You'll never be me in sour candy eating contests hahaha. 

I just wanted to bring up something I witnessed on the bus this morning on my way to work. Holidays regardless big or small make people extra simple and kind and there really are no boundaries. A lady this morning was very nice to a woman and her child giving her child candy and also telling the mother where they should go trick or treating. They were talking like they were good friends and having a casual talk. 

I felt this is a rare sight to see. Because normally people kept to themselves in buses and trains, but sometimes all it takes is a simple gesture or first step to show that there is kindness and warmth in people each day. People aren't as uncaring or unsympathetic as some see them to be. 

That is why holidays bring out this warmth of sharing and caring, of sympathy and genuine kindness that comes from the hart to even strangers that just met. Who said Halloween is just about scary movies, costumes, drinks, and old folklore? All it takes may be a simple piece of candy and a friendly conversation to remind us there is warmth and sincerity all around us. Even if we don't show it on a regular basis.

Happy Halloween once again and cheers! 

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Writers are Degrading Themselves

As a writer, I am sometimes sickened by how much writers are willing to degrade their work to satisfy their agents, publishers, and audiences. This is one of reasons I am very reluctant to let others see my work because I don't want to hear that I should change this or that. I feel it it's grammatical things have to correct it's fine but not when it's uprooting a mass apart of the plot or a scene or a character. Because we as writers put so much effort, time, creativity into creating a story, and it gets dissected and analyzed by readers and agents and if they don't like it then it doesn't sell or worse, doesn't get published. That's a really cruel way to shoot down someone's work they've worked on for years. But you're supposed to get used to that right? Endless piles of rejection letters before someone says yes. There is always the option of self-publishing but if readers don't like your book, you still don't have any audiences. 

I will first talk about why I feel writers degrade their own work just, so they can get more readers and get published. Everyone wants to get published nowadays and be famous and acclaimed. The biggest audience of readers nowadays are mostly young adults. What appeals to young adults nowadays are usually fantasy, science fiction, and romance. Young adults usually go crazy over vampires and magic. I mean it's normal because everyone imagines of falling in love with a vampire or demon or whoever. It's the well young adults think when they buy books, they fall in love with the hot demon who kills everyone who threatens those they love. It's normal from a reader's point of view. I want to read books like that once in a while as well. 

However, when every single YA book is about the same themes and plot it gets irritating. A lot of new and good authors who wrote YA books or going into this genre tend to degrade not only their writing. But they're also degrading men and women as well. A real man is supposed to be like this. Make a character like this to make young adults love them and the book. Publishers and agents tend to look for things that will sell like Twilight or The Hunger Games. 

It's just like a bandwagon for writers to jump on whatever they see is selling like hotcakes. Some are willing to toss out authentic ideas and things in the plot to make their books more likable and eye-catching. That really depresses me. Aren't writers all supposed to have their own unique voice? We shouldn't be copying the styles of others. I am sure not all young adults want to read about fantasy and heartbreaking love stories right? Why should we sacrifice our style and writing and ideas and succumb to what others want from us? Shouldn't we challenge or at least take a risk and put books out there to see how they will turn out? 

Now then I feel that as writer, I would never want to degrade my work or change and twist it to someone's liking. I'll work with them but I'll try to still keep the traditional planning and plot of a piece of work. I put all my heart and energy into each story and I don't want to jump on any bandwagon. Did Austen, the Brontes, Steinbeck ever worry about what others thought of their work? No, they wrote to tell a truth and to prove points. When you think of it, it is similar to I'm voicing my opinions and showing you the ugly truth and if you don't like it so be it. 

Writing is sharing our inner thoughts, feelings, questions, and things we want to talk about. And if this is what everyone is thinking about: vampires, demons, magic, and nothing much else..we have a problem. Where did all the genres of realism, romanticism, and satirical go?  Authors of centuries ago would be really disappointed in what is going on today with writers. 

Friday, October 10, 2014

Talk On Tea types

Sorry for no blog posts for so long! I didn't have any internet other than on my phone which I didn't want to use too much. But I am back now! I apologize to all my readers!

Today I shall talk about tea! I don't usually drink tea too often because they're so pricey. The brands I buy anyway from Asian supermarkets. I do want to learn to grow tea trees, so I can gather my own tea leaves and dry them and brew them for tea. Mmmm. I wonder if it's possible to grow a tea tree indoors since I don't have a yard.

Anyways here are the three types of tea I usually drink in the order I rank them as.

Green tea has always been my top choice for tea. A fun fact is that it's been used in China for 4,000 years in medicine! Amazing isn't it! I am happy I come from a tea drinking ancestry and country.
Drinking green tea lowers bad cholesterol and balances good and bad cholesterol out, it reduces risks of certain cancers, reduces chances of cardiovascular disease, prevent tooth decay and so much more. 

Green tea is used in creams, lotions, shampoos and other products now which really make you wonder how awesome it is. The only downside to tea is it contains caffeine but not as much as coffee itself. 

White tea my second favorite for tea. I love white tea. I read that white tea is beneficial for the heart and preventing heart disease. Also white tea's taste is less grassy than green tea and less strong as black tea. Because white tea is basically immature tea leaves that are plucked right away after they bloomed, sometimes my knowledge of tea frightens even myself. White tea is more healthy for you because they are closest to their natural state right after blooming and contains powerful anti-oxidants  that fights and kills cancer causing cells more than any other tea!

Black tea is the one type of tea I never really liked. Because the taste is so strong and leaves a horrible after taste and feel in the mouth that makes me shiver, I am not sure if it's the brand I drink or something else. However, the health benefits of it is amazing. It protects your heart from heart attacks and reduces the amount of cholesterol you absorb from foods. It protects your stomach and intestines as well. Pretty amazing facts right?

Maybe I'll give black tea another try. 

That reminds me that I have to stock up on some tea bags from the supermarket soon. If you have a favorite tea brand or cheap ones please let me know! 

Thursday, October 2, 2014


I was having a nice talk with a friend today about handwriting because they have horrible handwriting and it can't be helped! I can't even get them to do a penmanship lesson with me. I know technology is so advanced now that everything is typed and paper and pens really don't have that much use unless you're in school or at work.

However, I'm an 80's baby and I haven't fallen behind with technology, but I certainly will not give up my love and passion of how a pen or pencil feels in my hand, the sound of it dancing across a notebook nor the smell of the ink on the paper. It's such a fragile thing that sound be treasured and preserved in my opinion.

My aunt used to coach me horribly with penmanship when I was in grade school as soon as i could read and write. She would have me sit in her kitchen and give me paper, pens and pencils and watched me copy line after line from books and words. She would hold my hand and guide it across the page slowly and elegantly like a dancer guiding a new student. Those memories are vivid and her touch on my hand can still be felt whenever i pick up my pen or pencil even now. She would hit my hand with a ruler when I made a mistake or a letter was crooked.

My love for penmanship started there and so did calligraphy. I love pressing down hardly on the paper hoping it would be engraved into the wood beneath. There is a Chinese tale that Confucius and many philosophers in ancient China were able to write so hardly that the calligraphy seeped through the paper and into the wooden table by three inches. It's a true story and there is a proverb and poem that describes how beautiful it was. I wanted to be able to do that as well.

Every letter, every word I write is treated delicately like my own child. I am very proud of my own penmanship and despite all the technology we have at our hands today. I don't think I would ever give up my penmanship or stop writing on paper. Penmanship allows one to develop patience and endurance and tolerance not only in penmanship but those traits can be transferred into how you face life as well.

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Black Sesame Works Magic!

When I grew up, my aunt always made me black sesame powder paste. She said black sesame is very healthy and beneficial for the human body. I am really grateful and am intrigued by how knowledge my aunt was on health and all the little dishes and Chinese herbal recipes she used to make me eat and drink. I would bravely say that black sesame powder is one of the ones that didn't actually taste bitter nor had a nasty odor to it. 

The prepackaged ones you cane find at asian supermarkets are usually sweet and you just have to add hot water to one package. However, if you don't like prepackaged ones, you could always buy a big bag of black sesame seeds yourself and use a blender and blend it into a powder form and then cook it in a pot of water and add salt or sugar to it for your liking. I tend to like to make my own because it's more fun to do and I can add what I like to it. If you don't want to add salt or sugar, I have had it just cooked without anything and it tastes fine. It depends on your preference of course. 

Health benefits for eating black sesame includes: good source of vitamin e, can heal chronic illness after 100 days, reverse gray hair after a period of time, improve skin tone, regrow teeth after a few years, delay aging and extend life expectancy! There many other benefits but those are a few fun ones and factual ones. It can also help with weight loss and lower blood pressure levels as well. 

No wonder people always say Asians know to preserve their lives through simple foods. I love anything with black sesame in them. If you guys are busy people and have no time or interest in going through so much trouble, there are other options such as: 

BLACK SESAME CANDIES! There are also white sesame candies as well. These are also found in most asian supermarkets. I love making them at home though and their very simple to make as well. But they aren't pricey and pretty convenient for those who are constantly outdoors or on the move. I usually buy honey or sticky sugar and a bag of sesame seeds and mix it all together with ginger sometimes and mold them into these long bars and bake them for half an hour and then chop them up into pieces and have them in a jar.