I have been talking to a friend about some old shows and how good the shows used to be back like 10+ years ago. They weren't as dark and crazy but rather always trying to get a laugh out of the audience no matter what kind of show it was. The shows nowadays aren't bad, they're good but most are just a bit too dark, too heavy, too violent. We see how that effects the next generation doesn't it? A show that I grew up with is Friends! How many of you guys remember that show?

Whenever, it turned 6 o'clock at night, I sat myself in front of that TV and watched it for that precious half hour every single day. The best thing about that was always after Friends, came a family show called Everybody Loves Raymond. I loved that show so much and it was too hilarious to not love! Raymond is like the husband with no backbone and I would never live across the street from the in laws. Total nightmare. Good days, good memories, warm family feeling, good laugh after a hard day at school, after being yelled at my mother. 

I wished they would do a ton of reruns of those two shows. I would be the happiest girl alive! 

Sorry for not posting for some time on here. A lot has happened and I haven't been able to have much time to check blogs. Recently, I've made a decision that I may soon come to regret. Sometimes I wonder why I am always making choices too quickly, but it wasn't decided rashly, not when your mother is buzzing at your ear side for hours a day. 

I've decided and have registered for an EMT class that will start in January of next year. Those who know me will be like 'what the heck? Are you out of your mind?' But, yeah I wanna yell like that at myself too. I dunno, lately, I've been thinking---everyday like is this a job I want to do? A girl who cries help at math and science for the last 13+ schooling years in her life? It's a very honorable job to have, an injured person's life is in your hands as first responder. 

However, I do remember how much fun and interesting it was to take that college biology class at my old college. I really enjoyed reading about the different syndromes and genetic illnesses and learning so many things I could use in reality. I aced that class with 98%...the professor's exams weren't that hard but this is different. However, I am not afraid if I don't have time or anything but if I can face those bleeding people with calmness. I find it interesting and looking at those pictures do not frighten me, maybe its my own psychological state that might hinder me. 

I have also been thinking about this on a more deeper level about karma, my mother once said that I have to do a lot of good in order for myself to have a good future and life. This job does just that and I am willing to give it my all in the spring. Please root for me. :) 

As the picture I chose for today says, stay positive and I believe even the worst will come to be past. Isn't that right, +Jamie Raindle ? :P You too +Jamie Raindle please stay positive in your training and positive in what you know of your past. :) Let's root for each other! ^^/ That goes for everyone out there as well, always strive to stay positive even if you know you can't. 

~Jae

Yvette Cabada. I found her again. She contacted me on Tuesday the 24th and I was in complete shock as I ran to catch the bus and when I saw her....everything came crashing down. How I missed her, how I missed her hugs. Everything seemed fine and nothing seemed to have changed between us. When she told me what had happened, and gave reasons of what happened with her. 

It seemed almost unbelievably and at the same time shocking. It was only then that I've noticed how she changed and where she changed. She isn't that same girl who was all bubbly and overanalyzing every little thing. She looked worn and torn from the harsh fate of life. 

I only hope---everything is be smooth and fine for her from now on. 

"The belief in a supernatural source of evil is not necessary. Men alone are quite capable of every wickedness." - Joseph Conrad 

Joseph Conrad is one of my favorite authors for a number of reasons but most of all my love grew for him when I read Heart of Darkness by him. I remembered his writing was very dense and dull. When we read it for a literature class, I couldn't even get past the first page. There was no pause for an entire page. It was suffocating. However, when my professor broke it down for us and I read it again. It made sense and opened my eyes. He isn't an easy read but I would definitely read Heart of Darkness again anytime. 

Onto the quote. My take on this is that believing in a supernatural force of evil isn't required of everyone. You can choose to believe in demons or not, believe in satan or not, believe in evil or not. However, evil is all around us, not always just supernatural. Humans are evil in their own ways without knowing it, animals are, and anything that lives and breaths. Evil is born from our own crooked thoughts and emotions, from our mentality. Men (humans) are capable of anything, murder, rape, pranks, bullying, war, discrimination, anything and everything is done by man more than by supernatural forces. 

Don't blame supernatural sources for being evil or are evil. They wouldn't if they weren't born from what man has done. Evil supernatural beings feed on that negativity on man and repeats the same acts as man. Man are the really evil beings.