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Today We had our first snow of winter

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Today Chicago had it's first snowfall of the winter season. Like real snow without rain mixed with snow to make it be like slush. It is like solidified winter! I love snow and just watching it fall from the skies just make it seem like feathers of angels that are falling. Angels that take flight as loose wings break loose from their wings by the force. Let it snow endlessly!

As snow falls downward, we as humans want to let lanterns that carry our life and holiday wishes to the skies. I do wonder how many of these lanterns will reach the higher beings and be granted. A million tiny lights soaring up to the night sky, carrying our wishes, our dreams, our hidden emotions, will they be heard?

Does Anyone Still Remember?

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I have been talking to a friend about some old shows and how good the shows used to be back like 10+ years ago. They weren't as dark and crazy but rather always trying to get a laugh out of the audience no matter what kind of show it was. The shows nowadays aren't bad, they're good but most are just a bit too dark, too heavy, too violent. We see how that effects the next generation doesn't it? A show that I grew up with is Friends! How many of you guys remember that show?
Whenever, it turned 6 o'clock at night, I sat myself in front of that TV and watched it for that precious half hour every single day. The best thing about that was always after Friends, came a family show called Everybody Loves Raymond. I loved that show so much and it was too hilarious to not love! Raymond is like the husband with no backbone and I would never live across the street from the in laws. Total nightmare. Good days, good memories, warm family feeling, good laugh after a hard day at s…

I've Made a decision that I may regret but it's too late

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Sorry for not posting for some time on here. A lot has happened and I haven't been able to have much time to check blogs. Recently, I've made a decision that I may soon come to regret. Sometimes I wonder why I am always making choices too quickly, but it wasn't decided rashly, not when your mother is buzzing at your ear side for hours a day. 
I've decided and have registered for an EMT class that will start in January of next year. Those who know me will be like 'what the heck? Are you out of your mind?' But, yeah I wanna yell like that at myself too. I dunno, lately, I've been thinking---everyday like is this a job I want to do? A girl who cries help at math and science for the last 13+ schooling years in her life? It's a very honorable job to have, an injured person's life is in your hands as first responder. 
However, I do remember how much fun and interesting it was to take that college biology class at my old college. I really enjoyed reading …

What Is A Promise to A Friend?

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"When you make a solemn promise to a friend, it ain’t right to go back on it. Never let your friend down, never break a trust, and when you give your word, never go back on it." Lauren Myracle, Bliss (via simply-quotes)

In my experience and as a friend, I only make promises that I know I will keep for a long time regardless of the length of time or circumstances. It's not easy to make friends for some people and when you meet a friend and make promises, don't promise people promises light because if one day you regret it then you are not only hurting yourself, your friend but also someone who really cares for you. 
Maybe it's because my mother would make promises and then back out of it when it lands in front of us. A promise she may have made an hour ago could be revoked in three hours. I find that so irritating and it's like getting your joy and hopes up just to have you fall down from the clouds. That is why when I make friends and say things that are a pr…

I found her again...but...

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Yvette Cabada. I found her again. She contacted me on Tuesday the 24th and I was in complete shock as I ran to catch the bus and when I saw her....everything came crashing down. How I missed her, how I missed her hugs. Everything seemed fine and nothing seemed to have changed between us. When she told me what had happened, and gave reasons of what happened with her. 
It seemed almost unbelievably and at the same time shocking. It was only then that I've noticed how she changed and where she changed. She isn't that same girl who was all bubbly and overanalyzing every little thing. She looked worn and torn from the harsh fate of life. 
I only hope---everything is be smooth and fine for her from now on. 

Quotes #2

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"When you look long into an abyss, the abyss looks into you." ~Friedrich Nietzsche
Here is the second quote. Abyss means a bottomless depth of something, it could be a bottomless pit or bottomless sea of some unsightly thing. What this quote is trying to convey is that when a person looks into this bottomless pit, depending on whether the person is evil or good--the abyss reflects what your deepest secrets are. It can reflect light or darkness, victory or downfall. It all depends on your karma and morals. This abyss can devour you, destroy you, and even manipulate you if you let it. You can never escape from your true self. 
Either your true beauty or true darkness will be reflected right back at you by this abyss.

Starting Today--I'll be interpreting quotes for fun

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"The belief in a supernatural source of evil is not necessary. Men alone are quite capable of every wickedness." - Joseph Conrad 
Joseph Conrad is one of my favorite authors for a number of reasons but most of all my love grew for him when I read Heart of Darkness by him. I remembered his writing was very dense and dull. When we read it for a literature class, I couldn't even get past the first page. There was no pause for an entire page. It was suffocating. However, when my professor broke it down for us and I read it again. It made sense and opened my eyes. He isn't an easy read but I would definitely read Heart of Darkness again anytime. 
Onto the quote. My take on this is that believing in a supernatural force of evil isn't required of everyone. You can choose to believe in demons or not, believe in satan or not, believe in evil or not. However, evil is all around us, not always just supernatural. Humans are evil in their own ways without knowing it, animals ar…

Dedication To A Dear Friend - No Matter Where She Is

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Yvette Cabada. This name means very much to me. She is my best friend and has been for several years. Sadly, she disappeared suddenly over a month ago in early July. I have no idea where she is or if she okay or not. She is a very dear friend to me, yet I don't even know her exact address or home phone number or how to get a hold of her parents and family. She listened to all my worries, we shared secrets, stories, opinions, and everything possible.

We cried together and laughed together. Shared dreams together and made promises to be friends for a lifetime.

However, all that is crumbling because she has disappeared. None of her other friends know where she is and have last heard from her around the same time I did. There is no news or anything and I am just feeling very lonely and lost without her. She would never go on this long without contacting anyone who knew her.

Yvette had dreams. Big dreams to make changes in the world and improve herself. She didn't want to get marr…

Funny---Really Funny Thing Is...

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Don't you always find it laughable years later that you believed or still believe what you were told about your parents? Because we may not know how to go around to asking them if it was true or not, the question that would always be at the base of our throats, the question that would always be on the top of your mind, the question that would be on the tip of your tongue. Yet, you can't find the courage or strength to spit it out into the air because we are afraid of pouring salt on an old wound.

So--what should we do? Leave it be and not try to prod around on that wound? But what will happen if that doubt and question never finds peace in our conscious? I guess we can't always find the answer to the questions we want answers for, right? But what happens if we hate our parents for what we hear? What if we can't even find the courage to call them 'mom' or 'dad'? Even I don't know the answer to that.

However, maybe we shouldn't dwell on what is p…

Sincere Apologies To My Dad

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I have a job now and may be considered a horrible daughter today, until my mom reminded me that since I have a job, my first check should go to my father. Tell him that I have the ability and power to make a living on my own and help lift the burden from my mom's shoulders.

I never received the fatherly love I needed for too many years that I can no longer recall. My mother has done an amazing job of trying to be both to me though failing miserably in some ways. She was too stern, too unemotional---too stressed to ever put in real love for me. However, what I can say with my head held high and proudly is that--I never stopped loving my father and there was never a day that I didn't think of him. He was there spiritually in his own way. His voice always echoed in times of indecision and there were always words of encouragement.

I will give my first check to my father. Because I will never forget how many times, I stood in front of his grave and wished that he would help me fin…

Coffee Talk: Conflicts With Co-workers

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Coffee Talk: Conflicts With Co-workers

Conflict at work always happens, regardless if the co-worker plain hates you and doing it on purpose or you did something wrong but unable to face it. What I can say is this. That conflicts are like a sunrise and sunset. It comes when it comes because without conflict--we would never learn from mistakes or gain experience from dealing with different people or situations. It also disappears just as fast whether the conflict is resolved in the end or not.

When I am faced with a conflict at work or life with other people, I usually try to avoid arguing so it doesn't lead to a bigger problem. However, it also depends on what the situation is, like if I knew I am being framed on purpose or if I am right, I tend to try and find a supervisor to reason with. Because you don't know the other people too well, you don't know if your arguing will trigger a bigger emotional response from them. I feel it's best to find a person with higher auth…

Sorry Blog! - Update on Everything -Talk over Tea

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Wow, nearly half a month since I last made a post. I apologize! I'll update on what is going on with life and how I've been coping. School has been going pretty well--I feel that I've been learning a lot but some things feel repetitive in my opinion. What pissed me off is my English literature teacher. He said our midterm is covering over 20 authors during the romanticism period and if we get part of a question wrong the entire thing is wrong. And, no, this isn't grad school but just your regular ungrad. Everyone got so upset over it and I feel like this midterm is like a college history exam on steroids. He won't even consider the exam of being open book which double sucks. let's see how we all fail it.

On the bright side, I have managed to find a job at Chick-Fila-A! Yay me! I am a prep girl in the kitchen and I love my job. It's just that sometimes it gets overly hectic especially night shifts (which I do) and there are no extra hands to help. But---I s…

Humidity Is Driving Me Insane

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Apologies to my beloved blog first of all! Summer classes have started and I been feeling a bit overloaded lately so I neglected you! I apologize! I wanted to vent out today because the weather temperature just spiked up like ten degrees again after we were given two days of cool mid 60's. I get very lazy and irritated in the summer once the temperature gets humid and sticky and blahhh. 
We are supposed to get into the 90's over the weekend and I am totally crying out for help. I am a December born baby and I am not anti-summer that much. As long as it doesn't get past the 80 degrees mark, I can handle it pretty well. Once it does and given we don't have an a/c in the house, it will be a live oven in here. Taking showers every hour, being glued to the tower fan, sucking on ice cubes. 
How can anyone love summer so much? It's just an annoying and irritating season of the year once it stretches out to its full temperatures. I want to live somewhere where it's mi…

Father's Day ~

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It's the day of the year again. Father's day. I never had a happy Father's day ever since my dad left me when I was two years old. Whenever this day would come around after I knew common sense, this would be a day where I spent in the cemetery for a few hours, reflecting, thinking, speaking to my father from my heart. While other families were celebrating with their fathers in restaurants and spending precious time at home, our home would always be mellow and still. 
Today, my mother and I went to the cemetery at 8 am and met my aunt Lee and her two sons there. It has been years since I saw both of my older cousins and it shocked me to see them changed so much. White hair as white as snow when my older cousin was only 55. We actually hugged when was new for me and it felt really comforting. I don't know when I will see them again with our busy schedules. 
I updated my dad on all that has been going on with me in life and sat for a long time in front of his grave. Ceme…

Coffee Talk: Becoming a Morning Person

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Coffee Talk: Becoming a Morning Person

"We want to know, how have you become better at tackling the mornings? Do you have a certain routine that gets you going? Is it exercising in the morning? Your breakfast? If you are morning person, what advice can you give to those of us who aren’t?"
Hum, I have always been a morning person since i was around nine years old. I don't know, it just happened all so naturally in my opinion. I never had a naughty side or rebellious attitude. When my mom told me to get up, I got up and went to the living room at 4 am each morning as she locked up the doors to the kitchen and the other bedrooms. Breakfast was always noodles or oatmeal in a thermos mug. She would bid me goodbye and be out the door at 5 am. I am so adapted to it right now that even as an adult, I can never sleep past 5 am unless i am dead tired from the night before. I am fully awake, though a bit slow and completely ready to do productive things. I read and write at 5 in the …

Once A Mistake Is Made

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Talking with family always really gets you to think about where you are at in life. Every family has their drama, their bitter moments, sweet moments, difficulties, and messes that are so tangled up that you can't undo the knots. My seventy-eight year old aunt and I sat down today and had a nice long talk about life and where I have to go from here. I love my aunt, she is so gentle, and direct with what she has to say. There is no hiding or anything from her.

I learned some really terrible things about some family members today. All of this may have started when the elder generation made a decision that would be considered to be rejected by society and against the laws of nature. After, that family member committed that act, the generations that follow all suffered from their mistake. They must pay the price of those before them. Do you believe in that? I didn't until I heard what my aunt told me today.

Orwell's 1984 Has Become Reality!

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Many of you guys who watch the news may have already heard of NSA watching our every move, our tweets, phone records, you name it (well maybe not everything). But how long will that be? I read Orwell's 1984 back when I was a senior in high school. It was the main book that we focused on for a good part of the school year. When I read it back then, it didn't make much sense until we saw the movie after finishing the book. The text was just too dull. 
However, after all these years and after hearing this on the news. It frightens me how accurate what Orwell wrote in 1984 has slowly started to come true. The government spying on our own private lives what we do each day. How long will it be before our televisions become cameras and there will be televisions all over the city. We'll be dressed in bland and vague uniforms at work. No sense of self or individualism. Maybe that is going to far but it's only a matter of time in my opinion. -shifty eyes-

Coffee Talk: Closure

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Coffee Talk: Closure


In my opinion, there is never closure. The wounds will only be there but as long as you don't go sprinkling salt on it or prodding it, it'll fade into the darkness but it'll still be there. I feel that it's best to leave things unsaid, leave issues unresolved between two people, allow that sense of wonderment to remain. Maybe five, ten years from now, I would think about still in curiosity at where the problem was or what their answer would have been. Because, I tried to talk it out with a past ... I don't know if boyfriend is the right word, but he completely ignored answering the question and kept talking on his own. Some guys are just pricks.

Leave things as they are. Don't go prodding around for answers that will only lead to more headaches and problems you never thought existed. It is okay to go and see them one more time from afar and by afar, I mean really like two streets away or across the street, hidden in a crowd. haha.

Sometimes…

Defense Mechanism Thoughts

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Defense mechanisms came from Freudian studies. I started wondering about this after I started working on my current story that I am working on. I haven't thought about this before, it was just that I didn't want to explore it in depth just yet then. Recently, I also watched an episode of one of my favorite television shows, Criminal Minds, that had an episode talking about defense mechanisms as well.

What do you remember from the time you were born to around four years old? I can't remember anything. It's all just a huge blank spot in my brain given that I lost one of my parents at the age of two and recall none of it. I can't even up even a hint of memory of those years, it was like I was nonexistent or repressing the memories.

"Repression is the unconscious blocking of unacceptable thoughts, feelings and impulses. The key to repression is that people do it unconsciously, so they often have very little control over it. “Repressed memories” are memories that h…

Wedding Dinner Afterthoughts

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I went to attend a wedding dinner yesterday for one of my mother's old friends at Old Chinatown. It was at 2100 S. Archer and the restaurant was so elegant and classy. I doubt I could afford to dine there on a regular day. The food was delicious and I haven't ate so much for a long time. That may have sound weird but welcome to the middle class lifestyle. I had a ton of fun with my cousin and took pictures. Some people kept commenting on me being pretty, I doubt that I am and I am not. >_> It was flattering though. The wedding gifts were very cute and I love the boxes color so much. 
They had a lot of little games and fun moments. I refused to go up and try to catch the bride's bouquet though! I didn't want to get married just yet. The newly wedded couple looked so beautiful and a perfect match! <3 Much wishes to them for a hundred years of happiness! 
Okay, how do I feel after the wedding dinner? My mom told me that I got five years until I hit the big thirt…

Book Review: Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami

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“Memory is a funny thing. When I was in the scene, I hardly paid it any mind. I never stopped to think of it as something that would make a lasting impression, certainly never imagined that eighteen years later I would recall it in such detail. I didn't give a damn about the scenery that day. I was thinking about myself. I was thinking about the beautiful girl walking next to me. I was thinking about the two of us together, and then about myself again. It was the age, that time of life when every sight, every feeling, every thought came back, like a boomerang, to me. And worse, I was in love. Love with complications. The scenery was the last thing on my mind.” 
― Haruki MurakamiNorwegian Wood
“No truth can cure the sorrow we feel from losing a loved one. No truth, no sincerity, no strength, no kindness can cure that sorrow. All we can do is see it through to the end and learn something from it, but what we learn will be no help in facing the next sorrow that comes to us without wa…

Haruki Murakami: A Legend

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Haruki Murakami is the most amazing author I've ever come across. I still remember clearly when I first found out about him in my college creative writing class while we were reading fiction. The first piece I read by him was Super- Frog Saves Tokyo. His writing style and technique caught me on the first sentence. He pulls the reader right in with the first sentence having the reader begging to more and not be able to put it down until it's finished. 
I think the reason that I am such a huge fan and nerd of his work is because his dialogue and details are so down to earth and anyone could connect to them. The situations in his works can happen to anyone at anytime. He reminds me greatly of John Steinbeck. His use of realism is so frightening haunting in each novel. I love his choice of music that he brings up in the book. His writing and dialogue is so insightful. 
I think it's his way telling the stories. Most of his novels revolve around self-discovery from the main cha…

Bubbly Bubbly, bubble tea

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I love bubble tea. Sometimes it's known as pearl milk tea. I can't recall the last time I had a cup of these but the taste is still reachable if I think about it really hard. This little drink isn't too pricey and the tapioca pearls at the bottom are so chewy and yummy. I think my favorite would have to be the original pearl milk tea (above pic) or the green tea one. 
These little drinks are so yummy during the summer months and can quench your hunger and thirst with a single sip. I could eat those chewy tapioca pearls all day if I wanted to! This drink comes in so many different flavors as well. However, I am loyal to green tea and that'll never change no matter whatever drink I have. You should see the lines at old Chinatown during the summer. The lines lead all the way down the street with people just waiting for a cup of these little babies.

Karma Adds Up

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Karma. Not everyone concerns themselves with this word or its true significance. Karma exists in every religion and they all come down to knitting good karma during this life, so you won't carry a heavy burden in your next one.

I believe that karma never goes away. It is like the shackles and chains that bound you to your burden until you cleanse your soul of bad karma that you gathered from past lives. Karma is the shadow that you can never toss  away because it is what defines each and every human being. You can try to ignore it and not attempt amends. However, what would you do if you were unable to find a job, unable to find a true friend, unable to survive in society? All these aspects have to do with karma. It's not a matter of luck or blessing but rather on how you lived your past life. If you were a good moral, good deed person, who always strived to help others and be selfless.

It may sound hard but anything is possible if you put your head to it. I believe that. Kar…

Writer's Block Moment

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Writer's biggest obstacle isn't whether they can write a good tale, have good plots, have captivating characters, but it rather lies with having a writer's block moment. You can be sitting in front of whatever utensils you use for writing and your mind is at a blank. You can have the most intriguing story down on paper but suddenly realize you hit a brick wall. It can be because your neighbor's construction next door is driving you bloody mad, or you woke up and really don't know where to pick back up your eagerness to continue the tale.
I woke up today to such a state of mind. I tried reading the two novels which I have been reading, which are Anna Karenina by Tolstoy and Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami. Tolstoy's writing has always been reading but difficult for me to concentrate. Murakami's writing also catches my interest in the first line. That's the difference between writers. It all lies in that first line in the book.

I felt that it's not…

Master of Words = The Writer

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Yes, it's difficult to find a job as a storyteller in today's society. However, storytellers is one of the most important that society lacks. Yes, there are a ton of authors, essayists, novelists, and critics in the world. However, they all write to impress and go with whatever bandwagon the rest of the authors are going in. 
I don't approve of this type of thinking at all. Think. What is the true meaning of storytelling? I am a storyteller myself and wish to do that for a lifetime. I want to have a unique and distinctive voice from the rest of the bandwagon. I want to tell stories of topics that belong to me. I want to share my life with the world through characters I've created. In return, I hope the next generations to come would learn from these lessons and learn not to make the same mistakes as I.
I believe one can't become a storyteller without reading tons of books themselves on the first hand. However, those who have experienced a lot have a ton of tales t…

Church Bells

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Have you ever noticed how church bells haunt you when you hear them? Whether you live by a church, passing by a church, or sitting in a church, doesn't it's sound send chills down your spine? Yesterday, I was waiting at the 147 bus stop and suddenly through my earphones, I heard the sound of church bells in the distance. I used to leave near a church and took that sound for granted. 
However, I guess it's because I am older now that I realized how peaceful and soothing it is to hear the sound of church bells suddenly. When the bells drown out the music coming from your earphones, your body just goes stiff as you listen to that sound. How many times do you have this moment of silence in a day? How many times do you pray per day? When was the last time you stopped at a church for more than gossip on a Sunday morning?
The crisp, spiritual sound a church bell makes shouldn't be taken for granted or lightly. It struck me like a jolt of lightning as I reflected on where I a…

Purple and Blue

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Purple is the color of good judgment. It is the color of people seeking spiritual fulfillment. It is said if you surround yourself with purple you will have peace of mind. Purple is a good color to use in meditation. Purple is one of my best friend, Yvette's favorite color. She is always has a peaceful mind. Her judgment is clear and concise to the point. She always reminds me to think about things from a view I never thought of. She always persuades me to make a better judgment and she has amazing judgment on people. Who knew colors could say so much about a person?! 


Blue. Blue is the coolest color - the color of the sky, ocean, sleep, twilight. The ancient Egyptians used lapis lazuli to represent heaven. Blue symbolizes the Virgin Mary. A pure blue is the color of inspiration, sincerity and spirituality. Blue is often the chosen color by conservative people. Blue is the calming color.
I am always full of inspiration and sincerity. I am not sure about spirituality though. I am al…

Us Against Nature

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Have you ever wondered how small we are in front of the force of nature? I took this photo when my mom was under this beautiful tree trying to pick a branch to bring home. See how the branches all lash out like a huge umbrella or a young kid stretching out their hands and legs freely? How long has it been have we, adults, been able to stretch back and grow and relax. How long has it been since we accepted that we will one day grow old and wither away. How long has it been that we must fight under the blazing sun to sprout and plant down firm roots?
Humans if compared to nature are fragile beings. Humans break down and fall down even more times than nature does. Yet they never fully recover. Nature does. It recovers and is reborn again and again endlessly in a new place or old. They don't give in or give up in weather or if they are stripped of their leaves or bulbs. They continue to bloom, fight to stay bloomed in the roughest storms and temperatures because they want to shine.
I…

Semester is over

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Yay, the semester is over for college! Time to kick back and get the hours of sleep that were lost during the semester. It's time to reflect on how one did this semester. It's time to remember the laughter, the stress, the dramas during the semester, and the friends that were made. There are people who are transferring to other universities, some that remain behind, some that decided they need a break. There is finally the moment where we can catch our breath as students before the next semester starts. 
In my opinion, when a semester ends, it is similar to losing a dear friend. We've been on this road, writing each day of our lives with a certain routine. Now that there's a chance to relax, we don't really get used to it or we feel rather uneasy. That's just my opinion anyways. 
When my finals were over on Thursday, I felt that the ball had dropped from my hands and dribbled away from my possession. Say goodbye to the school, to this life, to this routine unt…

Relationship deal breakers...

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Coffee Talk: Relationship Deal Breakers

Smoking is the first main thing I cannot stand. 

 I have broken off with a guy my mom set me up with because he made so many assumptions when I didn't reply to his text or return his phone calls. I got so mad. Because first of all assumptions are a bad habit, secondly, don't assume anything about someone you don't even really know? I can withstand a lot about any guy. I mean as long as you don't smoke, you're not a jackass, it's all good, right? 

However, when you start making assumptions when I didn't reply to your text for a few hours is ridiculous. I am busy and my life doesn't revolve around you. I have my own circle of friends and own way of doing things. I just got so mad at him and you wouldn't believe the assumptions he was coming up with. 

The third thing I cannot stand is a paranoid mother. His mother. They are freaky and stressful to face. That was the type of mother my ex had and boy did it end in a cr…

Coffee Talk: What Decade Do You Wish You Lived Through?

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Coffee Talk: What Decade Do You Wish You Lived Through?

There are too many decades I wish to go to and live in. However, if I must pick one then I want to go back to ancient China or Victorian England. Why ancient China because I want to wear those beautiful robes and have though hair stixs in my hair. I want to learn the way of their way of living and be able to portray my skills. I want to meet a man who'll take my breath away with his intelligence. I want to relive history.

Victorian England because the gowns girls wore were just gorgeous and I would love to have a British accent! I want to see how it was really like to live in that era rather than reading and watching it on tv and in books. I want to rise up like one of Jane Austen's girls and speak my mind and be as free as the wind. Go to balls in beautiful gowns. See the beautiful countryside. 

Don't you feel like sometimes you aren't meant to live in this decade? Your skills would be more useful in another time wi…

Bulbs of Spring

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Spring. Spring is the season where new hope arises after the bitter winter. It's also the season where we have to start reflecting and planning on what we have done on life and where to go.

Spring gives new life to plants, animals, infants, but it gives us a second chance too. A chance for us to make amends, to pick up our speed in life, to find a goal in our life, and to enjoy the great weather.

It is important to plant a good seed in the spring season and hope it'll sprout into a beautiful flower. Take the right first step and surely something fruitful will come out of it.

Coffee Talk: What Kind of Shopper Are You?

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Coffee Talk: What Kind of Shopper Are You?

I am the self-proclaimed bargain shopper. Because I was raised in a family that was fairly low middle class, I was taught to not buy overpriced anything and want patiently for sales, which only came during the big holidays. Getting a job is hard. Keeping it is harder. Earning that check and learning how much to spend and all the sweat and hardwork that earned that check just makes me want to use it in the right way.  

I am the one who will go nuts when it's christmas, thanksgiving, and any other big holidays in the year! I don't go walking around stores unless it's a must or I need some clothes for school and that ended in high school. Like, Ahhh I need more white shirts and black pants because it's school policy! Now, as a college student, I feel I don't need new clothes all the time. There are so many different ways to mix and match the clothes I have regardless if it's stylish or not. All that matters is that …

Hear This: Birdy

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Hear This: Birdy

 I love this singer. I came across her when I was just browsing for some nice music videos on some tv series I was hooked on. Someone used her song Shelter in the video, and I was just so captivated by the rhythm and lyrics at once. It suited the scenes perfectly. Her voice was just magical and haunting in my opinion. I believe that no one deserves to be called Birdy but her. She is a bird that has the voice of a thousand cherub angels from the heavens! I believe that everyone is just searching for that one song that you dread to hear but can never let it disappear from your life. Birdy's songs just have that uniqueness in them! <3

Sharing a same cigarette

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I just got home in front of my building and saw this really cute snowman! I wondered who made this cute little fella right on a stone table in our little front courtyard. I thought it was a person or kid sitting there at first. However, when I got a good look at it, it was a snowman! Not just any snowman! A snowman that smokes! How cute is that? I don't know if you guys can see it clearly but there's a cigarette in his mouth. I can picture a father or mother and their kid making this little snowman. A parent smoking until the cigarette is almost at the end of its life and then crush the tip out and put it in the snowman's mouth. To taste a ciagrette's taste between two people is magical.

I don't smoke, but I think to be able to share something together is very special even if the snowman is not real. Also, don't know if you guys noticed but there are pebbles on the table. I don't know if  that was intentional but it seemed really cute to do so. Unless...it…

Coffee Talk: Who Do You Talk To?

Coffee Talk: Who Do You Talk To?
Three of my best friends ever. They are the ones I turn to always. They are Jamie, Yvette and Cihannar. Yvette is the only one who lives in Chicago and I love her. She is so intelligent and gives such great advice and is wide well beyond her age. Jamie, I met on the net while playing a game and we've been friends for over 4 years. Sadly, he lives in London, but we always email and Skype. We are similar in many ways and can talk about anything. It's so peaceful talking with him. Cihannar is my little sis who lives in the Netherlands and she always puts a smile on my face. I love them all, and they always make any gloomy day shine. 

How about you guys?

Fashion: Typical girlish obsessions

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Today I went to wood field mall with my mother, aunt, and cousin. I seriously needed a new coat and my main goal in saying that I would go was to buy one! My cousin's goal was to buy UGG boots. However, we walked through some of the stores and couldn't find anything suitable. In my cousin's case, the UGG boots were in the $155 range which was a serious number. She did manage to find the boots, they didn't have the right size. I couldn't find a good coat for the winter. Coats are like almost extinct.

We went to Forever 21 and finally found something that was worth buying. Gotta love this place! Some jeans are only $10.80! Where can you find prices like that?! We also found some nice basic Camis for $2.80!!!!!

However, the piece of clothing that caught my attention was this flowery patterned dress. Flower designs printed on navy blue fabric. All finished with a thin brown belt at the waist. These types of clothing reminds me of the 70s and 80s. Where wearing flowery …

Coffee Talk: What Advice Would You Give Your 23-Year-Old Self?

Coffee Talk: What Advice Would You Give Your 23-Year-Old Self?
Stop being so indecisive !!!!
I just turned 24 like a month and a half ago. The questions you asked are some things I have been asking myself since I was 14. I had to grow up fast, and my mother challenged me to think ahead a lot. 23 was an age where I was struggling to keep myself from drowning. I had so many degree changes in college because I wanted to get a job as soon as I was done with school; however, I realized the answer was always right in front of me. I had a gift since I was a child for writing and reading so why deny it? Because English majors have a hard time finding jobs? However, I decided to buckle down and do it because it's my passion and despite my fear of speaking in from of others, I planned to go into PR or college teaching. So, 23 was a time of indecisiveness and hunt for my true self and goal.
What about you guys? What advice would you give your 23 year old self?
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Happy Birthday to The Everygirl!

Happy Birthday to The Everygirl!
Happy birthday to you!!!!!!!!!!! Congrats to a successful year and I hope more successful years are yet to come! Every age we gain is also another completed chapter of our huge storybook! The most important thing to do as a new page of the story takes place is to be full of optimism and embrace every single lesson and step ahead of us gratefully!
Cheers to you!
Location:N Lincoln Ave,Chicago,United States

Weather: Snow Party!

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This morning was crazy! I was in bed and then heard scratching sounds outside. I thought that it was just ice; however, my mother woke me and said it's snowing. Everything from the window at home seemed like not a big deal but then when I actually headed out to school, my boot was encased in snow that had not be shoveled.
I was appalled and made my way across this small bridge I have to cross. It was like hiking the Himalayas or maybe I am just out of shape. Every step and stumble took twice the time and strength. I know one thing for sure and that is, I have gotten all my workout that I need for today. I love snow and walking in it and looking up at the snow covered tree branches down a street but come on, the sidewalks need shoveling!

Food Post: Mmm. A Taste from the Past!

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Have you ever had a snack when you were a child and then not have it again until fourteen years later? Well, I have just come across this experience. The picture above is a chinese snack and the English name roughly translated is Dates and Walnut candy. It's really healty and made witth actual walnuts. Big pieces! Not like walnut poder or crumbles of walnuts. Chewy and delicious. I had this candy when I was really young around six or seven and then never had the honor of having it again until now. My mom bought a bag, and we shared a few pieces and boy did it bring back memories! Childhood memories, bitter and sweet ones. It just feels so good to have a taste from the past. I never knew why we stopped buying this snack. Maybe we got tired of it or eating too much was bad for your health. However, eating the candy now just brings back so many faces, voices, and tears of those childhood days. How one piece of candy could make me so happy back then.

The candy wrapping paper is very …